Category: Blog Posts

I’m in a tough space lately. I talked to a friend and really decided it’s time for me to get it together. I’ve started reading blogs and looking for books that I can read for self-development. I’ve found a lot of really great advice on the internet and I’m waiting on my books to come in. One thing that has been consistent though is the fact that every site and every article has mentioned needing a niche, needing a thing that I am passionate writing about.

The thing is, I just like to write. I like to write about everything. If someone gives me something to write about, I can write. I just really enjoy writing, so how do I decide on a single niche? I am passionate about talking points, things like politics and movies and other people’s writings. I really enjoy doing interviews and learning different perspectives, but I just don’t know how to choose a niche from those things.

I thought about trying to channel just one thing, but I just love everything! I literally can’t think of anything that I don’t like to read/write about. There are certain areas I am more critical of, things like sci-fi and biographies and even black film, but I’m always so open to finding the good stuff in the bad. 

 Maybe I should try to focus on reviews. In this quarantine, I’ve been watching a lot of television and I plan to indulge in quite a few books very soon. Maybe that’ll be my niche, reviews. Not necessarily in the light of being a “critic”, but more in, “this is what it was for me”.

I think that’s what I’m going to try to do. i’m just going to test out a bunch of different niches and see which one really resonates with me. The whole time though, I’ll keep up with writing reviews of everything that I get into and how I like each different thing. I’m going to start with Netflix though, just because I have it on and I’ve been having it on a lot. So I’ll be getting started soon, and I’ll keep updating.  

I made this page over a year ago. I had every intention to keep up with it, but it always seems like my actions and intentions don’t add up. I intend to do the right thing, say the right thing, act the right way, and it seems like all the time I am faced with this issue of how to make sure the receiving end of my intentions gets the right message. I am right in the middle of a phone-less retreat. Mostly it’s just me, sitting in my house for 3 days with nothing except Netflix and writing.

I’m working on things, mental things. I’ve been dealing with things that have just been really stressing me out; stressed to the point that I’ve legitimately made myself sick of it. I’m currently not working because of corona, I’ve been out for a little less than a month. I’m trying to take this time to just channel my focus. I started painting, but the only writing I’ve been able to do has been the daily letters I send my girlfriend. Those have been pretty pathetic though; just been a lot of daily recaps and “I miss you.” There’s been a lot of space between me and everyone lately due to this corona and my current mental health state. I haven’t much wanted to be bothered or be a bother.

This is my re-commitment though. Even is this just becomes more of a journal than a blog at first. I do want to eventually get back to my plan. I still haven’t published that first book, I haven’t even gotten very far on the second one. I started a third that’s specifically dedicated to my girlfriend. It’s a compilation of everything I write to or about her; minus the letters that we’ve been sending lately. Truthfully, I’m behind on that one too; I started it and put it down like I do to everything.

That’s what I’ve really been working on lately; finishing the things I start. I have unfinished letters, unfinished poems, unfinished books, unfinished shows, unfinished business everywhere I turn. Everything I touch starts and doesn’t end. I’ve just been so tired. I always end up so tired. I get inspired and I get started and then I get uninterested and I get tired and I don’t want to do anything for a really long time. It’s like that for me; I want to for a while and then, for an even longer time than I originally wanted to, I just don’t want to anymore. I don’t want to anything, and so everything I do becomes things that I do out of choice. I start to do things, not because I really want to or because I have to, just because I know that if I was in a better mood, I would normally do it.

I try to stay in good spirits. I try to stay sane, but sometimes I just need a break. This is me taking a break. I just disappear, I pick up all my things, I turn off my phone, and I just disappear. Most people don’t even notice, they don’t even miss me, so it’s a pretty easy thing to just disappear. So that’s what I’m doing, I’m currently invisible, and I don’t think anyone has noticed.

There are literally an unimaginable number of things that go on every second of every day. Every person has a life and every life has a purpose; unfortunately for most of is, we haven’t found out what that purpose is yet. Personally, I’m torn between where I feel I should be in my life and where I currently am; a struggle that is common for those in their early twenties.

As a quick run down and introduction, I’m Celena, founder of CeeTeagan. This is my blog page, but I love writing. I’m in the process of editing my first book and writing my second one. I made this page as a way to talk about my journey inclusive of my downfalls and come ups. I wanted a platform for people to be able to follow me other than the classic social media. All readers can like, comment, share, and contact me through this site. This is a safe place for me and my audiences. The goal is to stay as active as I can on here which includes weekly posts and staying fluid with those that do contact me.

This is a rough patch in my life. My writing is my exhale through all the things I’m faced with. I, like most people, am just trying to make it in this big, cold world. I fall short and flat on my face sometimes, but I’ve gotten to the point where I’m ready to embrace all that life throws at me and share this roller-coaster ride with those willing to ride with me. Every second is filled with billions of people making billions of choices, in this second, this moment, I choose me. I choose to further my opportunities, to expand my views, to fine tune my talents, and to chase my dreams. What you choose to do now, will potentially build you into forever; what will you do?