Ever Been in a Rut?

I would legitimately hate to be a person that doesn’t have the kind of friends I have in my life. In the event that your friends are the absolute best variety of people, I can just tell you about mine.

I’ve been in a rut. Starting things that I’m not finishing, losing interest in everything, waking up in the middle of the night and sleeping until the middle of the day, I just haven’t been the most productive person lately. The thing is though, this is just kind of how my condition works for me. Sometimes I’m really inspired and on top of my game. I can be productive and come up with piece after piece after piece for a while; a couple days usually, but one time I made it through a full month. I was happy that month; life was kicking my ass, but love kept me happy.

The issue is my bad days though. Everybody has them, but nobody ever really talks about them. My bad days come and sweep me off my feet. They’re days that get so bad that I don’t want to get out of the bed, I don’t want to talk and I don’t want to be bothered. Some days, I call out of work, there are days that I don’t get out of the bed and I forget to eat because I don’t have an appetite. When I have bad days, they’re not just bad, they are horrible. Horrible days make for horrible work ethic and horribly produced work.

The thing is though, runts don’t last. I have a support system that doesn’t know everything going on, but they’re always there. They love me and push me and worry about me even when I forget to do it myself. I have a support system, and I try not to reach out too often, but they’re there. I’ve learned that other people don’t have that. I couldn’t imagine not having that.

I have a friend that I can call for motivation and someone I can call for crazy and someone I can call when I just need to laugh; but I have a variety of people. I do understand that I don’t necessarily have a very large audience right now, but I know I can’t be the only person that has these tendencies the way that I have them. I know I’m not the only person that needs some external motivation when things get bad. So for anyone that may need it, here it is.

Everyday that you wake up, take baby steps. You have a dream, it may be as small as a dream to just get through that day, but whatever the dream is, take small steps. I have a dream that HUGE, I don’t know how to get to it, I just see myself there. So when I wake up in the morning, I brush my teeth, I let my dog out, I try to remember to make my bed everyday. I take each one of those things as a win, as a step forward. I’m so excited when I remember to eat more than once everyday. Before the end of the day, it’s been a success if I could muster up the will to wash the dishes. That’s how I get through the bad days, and the good. That is my advice. It’s advice that we all know and that we’ve all heard, but some of us need to hear it more often and from different sources.

How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time. How do you get through your days? Start by making your bed. And surround yourself by people that can remind you of these things when you don’t have the strength to remind yourself.

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